I know, I know. The title makes me sound like a self-important, arrogant jerk. But hear me out before you judge me as being such.
I have a love-hate relationship with my own renaissance*^ (rebirth). And since I have many friends out there who are fans of lists, here are two lists to explain what I mean.
Things I Love about Being Reborn:
-I love that I've been chosen to be reborn.
-I love that my true life has germinated and grown in his power and grace.
-I love the feeling of resting fully on him for everything.
-I love the knowledge that I am secure in those everlasting arms that are mighty and powerful
and yet incredible gentle.
-I love the fact that I can ALWAYS have a sense of self-worth because he was willing to pay such a
huge price for me.
-I love the fact that he has and continues to use me in his dominion.
-I love the fact that he has changed my view of others and my view of myself.
Things I Do Not Love:
-I do not love the fact that the new man in me should be older and more mature.
-I do not love the fact that I stupidly revert back to the "infant" stage in my new life.
-I do not love that I all-too-often decide that I know what's best for me.
-I do not love that my heart is a fickle beast that can't make up its mind.
-I do not love the constant battle between old and new.
-I do not love that I have to wait until death to be fully healed. Uffda.
Don't get me wrong. The things I love WAY, WAY, WAY, WAY outWEIGH (sorry, I got a little carried aWAY there) the things I don't love. It's just that sometimes it would be nice to see a little more progress.
*in case you don't know (shame on your high school history teacher), renaissance literally means "rebirth" in French.
^I am not a fan of the fact that I have lots of diverse skills/knowledge but no real mastery in most/any of them.